A hodge-podge of thoughts

I get caught in the idea that my blog posts need to be really heavy or really thought-provoking. I’m not completely sure that this one is going to be either of those things.

Someone gave us a crib. Can I be honest, I didn’t realize how big those things were! I guess… I just thought of how little babies are, and therefore their beds should be really small as well. But man, that crib is really big.

This is all becoming more real for me. I see just how much room the crib is going to take up in the room we have for the baby, and my mind is instantly in sermon mode. Just the baby’s bed takes up THIS much space!? This is literally the first thing we have (aside from some clothes and smaller things that people have gotten us) and it takes up this much room.

This gets me wondering, am I really ready for this?

I’ve spent the past 4 days playing a video game. I’ve literally had a lot of ME-time in those past four days. Am I really ready to give up all that time?

Honestly… I’d give up Skyrim right now if it meant that I could hold my baby right now.

I honestly can’t figure out how men find out they’re going to be fathers and somehow don’t feel this way. You know that a little child (your child!) is going to be relying on you and mom for everything. How can you know that and still choose to not give that baby everything you have?

The crib takes up that amount of space in my house, and therefore my life. I can only imagine how much space the baby is going to take up in my life.

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We’re entering into the advent season, which is unquestionably my favorite time of year (followed by the start of baseball season). This year it’s taking on a whole new meaning for me, because advent is all about the expectation of the Christ-child, the God-man, the Savior, Emmanuel coming down to us. And this year, as I expect the coming of the baby Jesus, I also have the distinct honor of expecting Baby Connell too! I’ve never been more excited!

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Last piece of news, Holly thought she felt the baby move last night. I told her it was probably just indigestion. Which, coincidentally is what the doctor said it would feel like the first time the baby moved. Either way, the excitement continues. Holly should now expect my hands to be on her belly more; I want to feel the baby move too!!! Or at the very least, feel this incredible indigestion!